I wrote this letter two years ago in my journal, just want to share it. This is a love letter to my niece Precious Rizah Kate.
Dear Precious,
This is my love letter to you baby. I hope someday it could reach you. I wrote this letter to let you know how much you mean to me. The day you were born was probably the happiest moment of our family. We least expected it though that you have an identical twin. When you were still in the hospital I cried, for a reason personal to me. You were very cuddly and utterly adorable. People around you adores and loves you so much. You smile very sweetly.Yet, you were very elusive to me. I understand it because you only seen me once a month but it hurts because I always longed to cuddle and hug you. When fate brought me home again, you are already two years old,it gives me a chance to take care of you and to get to know each other.. And since I am your godmother, people taught you how to call me "Mommy". At first it was very awkward to me. I preferred to call me "Ninang". However, when you learned to speak, you called me "Meme" the minute I heard it my heart leaps with joy. There was a unique joy in my heart. Until you learned to call me mommy. Precious baby, do you know how precious you are? You are very precious to me that's where you get your nickname Precious.
The first nite when you slept beside me was quite difficult to me. I had to change your diaper, changed your clothes,prepared your milk and then suddenly you cried in the middle of the nite for the reason I couldn't understand what. There was a nite that i soundly asleep that I woke up dizzily because you weren't in my side anymore, I heard you crying in the living room looking for your "wawa" your grandmother. Those were the training days for me baby. Now you are turning three. You learned now some tricks, your words are clearer now. You are very sweet to me and very makulit too. I take care of you and love you as my own child. I pampered you too much which make you a spoiled little baby. Because of this, it made your real mother cried because you weren't listening to her anymore. Yet there were times you did test my patience. But I can not rebuke you or otherwise hit you because you are just a two year old baby.I just left you and yelled alone instead. Baby as you are, you don't know what's happening. You then called me in a prolonged sweet bubbled way, "Mommy can you come over here?" My heart melts away. Just one call from you, my anguish just gone like ashes like how it blown by the wind.he he
Baby, I know I can't take care of you forever because you are not mine. In time, your parents will get you. Me too, has to discern my own calling. I will surely miss you baby. For one year that we have been together, so many sweet memories we shared. Though you may not remembered all of these because you are still young but your Mommy will keep these sweet memories forever. I pray for the best of everything for you baby. May all your dreams come true.
And to you my dear Princess,
Don't ever think I love you less.
Love, Mommy J
