"Jeez, if I'd known this would be the life of a politician, I never would had run," silently, I uttered. I was in the corner of the dance hall, feeling like a wanderer. This was my first night as a politician and I felt like giving up already..
When I was fifteen, I was already into politics and "having disco" to raise funds was just one of my responsibilities. OK, maybe this was just as easy as A, B, C but for me it was a big NO and I had my reasons why. First, because I am religiously acquainted, I always remembered the homily of the priest that the meaning of D.I.S.C.O is Dancing In Satan's Company. So for God's sake, why should I dance? Second, I was an honor student and dancing in public for me could harm my reputation. Lastly, among all my defense mechanisms this maybe the most valid. I don't know how to dance! And because I was the leader I had to take the first move....to dance in the center! Gosh, I rather gave a talk and hosted an activity than dancing. I felt like dying that night but I stood on my principle. No one can make me dance especially in the public.I hate being pressured! My co-politician who was older than me was disappointed. He told me to do my part and grow up. And finally, the night was over with our total earnings P20.00 ONLY. So little, not enough to pay for the sounds system.
He told me to do my part and grow up. Every time I thought of that I burned with resentment and humiliation. Who did he think he was saying that to me? He was so wrong. But maybe he was right but his whole approach was very wrong. He should understand I needed time to learn. Besides, there were so much to do aside from disco. In the first place, who wanted and put me in this position anyway? But later, I realized I was already into this and there was no time for blaming and backing out, I had to make those "hurt remarks" as a motivation. It was time for me to be responsible on the consequences of my decision and no one can make me inferior without my consent.
I learned that every person that comes to our lives, may good or bad has its own contribution in our lives. It is a matter on how we understand and take things.
P.S. Now, I can dance but to dance in public? I don't think so. :-)
7 comments:
Great story.
WOW Janice! I am having fun reading your blogs. Love the way you write.
I like your quotes and sayings. Your very knowledgeable.
I wish i can also write. got so many thoughts, but im having difficulties in putting it to words.
No one will make us down. We should stand and fight for our right. Being flexible is great unless it won't harm us.
Yes, difficulties are blessings in disguise. Sometimes, we are so blind not to see the brighter side.
madam you did improve from that shy little un-dicided girl how's that?... three years ago? now a woman possess with a very strong. personality. It's been that long madam and am happy for your stand right now.
In case you need some more friends am still here.
PS. do you know the email address of Lieve? i lost my wallet together with that short card where her email ID was written
thanks.
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